excerpts

july 5, 2016

past thoughts that fester in passing

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i used to ask myself

when i die

will i be remembered,

by anyone or for anything?

and if remembered, 

how much of what i'm remembered for,

is something i'd be proud of?

now i ask myself

if in a world with no others, 

would that change how i live? 

in my last moment, at my last breath,

how do i want to remember myself?

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the term "fomo" 

is a term i can't figure out
i'm certain i don't wish i was there
but at the same time, 

i wish i wanted to be there

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i'm not sure if my unwillingness 
to disclose certain parts of myself with others
is a choice or a defense mechanism 

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are you ever afraid of missing out

on that one moment 

or on that one person

that might change the rest of your life? 

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how much of life is a result of 

how badly you want it, 

vs how much you deserve it?