its nice being in a city where no one knows your face or your backstory.
what about your prior self do you want kept anonymous?
is there something about your past you want concealed?
there's nothing i need to hide.
there are just things i don't want to be reminded of.
like what?
habits. tendencies. people.
do you think you left home to escape those bearings?
"escape" comes with a connotation that assumes i was held victim to those things.. and truthfully, for a long time, i was. but long before take off, i was ready to reset. it's okay to want a new start. it doesn't mean i want a complete obliteration of the past. i just needed to take on something new, start something better.
that's true. did you find your something new, here? your something better?
new, yes-- partially by default. everything here is new to me. better-- not sure yet. i haven't reached a consensus.
new is better! so by default, better as well.
i can't argue with that. new is often times better.
so what's keeping the power from striking gavel and reaching finality?
the fact that this is a court case of one. the understanding of a backstory grants me the ability to talk myself out of reason. being conscious of feelings and thoughts that drove unfair actions cloud judgement. the "what" doesn't seem so bad when you can justify the "why".
but cases can't be based on feelings or thoughts. that's cheating the truth. cases close on facts. so with being said: city-- better, or not better?
better. *signals the striking of the gavel*
meeting adjourned.
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friends, lovers, and foes.. don't wait for the "new" year to signal new beginnings. the start of a calendar year faints in comparison to the limitless number of beginnings you can choose to start every day.
make today the day that betters the rest of your tomorrows.