01 March 2015

forgive your debtors

there are so many things i want to ask you
you can ask me anything
i feel like i know the answers for the most part
don't you want to know for sure?
not really. i just want to remember the good parts of you.

he said such a destructive statement so casually.
his matter-of-fact assumption rung with a warm resonance,
a familiar optimism that was endearing and kind.
i wanted to convince him that he was wrong.
i wanted to have something comforting to offer.
but i froze, because i knew,
he was definitely right.

there's nothing worse than having a debt you can't afford to repay,
except knowing that the one who loaned you invaluables,
never had intentions of collecting from you anyway.