i hate this part of summer. when it's midday, there's nothing to do, and it's hot outside. i'm in bed thinking about what i should do in the future. by this time next year, i will have graduated with a BA and BS. my degrees have nothing to do with each other: child development and advertising.
babies vs. computers.
developmental theories vs. technological advances.
chad: i love kids, i love being surrounded with their cheerful and naive spirits. i love that they're so eager and curious. i love that their energy keeps me up and makes me excited about life. what i love most about kids is that i don't have to front when i'm around them. i can be myself-- my goofy, dorky self. they don't judge and they don't have ulterior motives dark enough to make me cringe. unlike the adult world, they see things as is. they don't over think or misinterpret intentions. working with them will be comfortable. i wouldn't feel threatened by them, and i wouldn't worry about them taking advantage of me with my walls down.
comm ad: i love advertising. i love creating things, playing with layouts, examining html's and hyperlinks. so much of the world revolves around cyberspace, and i for one, am in love with the idea of being wholly entrenched in this more perfect, less realistic, parallel universe. a better filtered, more presentable, could be permanent universe. i love that people have the choice to present things exactly how they want it. skewed, stretched, lightened, smoothed out, refined versions of themselves. everyone seems so happy, so perfect, so interesting over the internet. i love that websites have the ability to lure people in and keep them engaged in browsing if properly laid out. i like the idea of being captivating through my work, and i like the possibility of me being able to be expressive and creative through a computer screen.
i don't know which one would be a better fit for me, so i keep both options equally open. my ideal situation would be me teaching 4th grade (where they begin their more creative writing pieces), going at home in the afternoon, and then working on projects for other people or myself. so many possibilities! i hate that by this time next year, i will be forced to make a decision about my career pursuits. i should enjoy this summer while i can, but i'm nervous. there are less than 365 days left before i need to enter the next stage in my life. oh gods of wisdom and discernment, please help me reach catharsis. i hate being uncertain.
p.s. babies vs. computers? someone should make a movie about that.
