your youth

never ask for permission. oops, i don't know, i don't care, and whatever are valid responses. sitting indian style wherever, because it's comfortable. being comfortable doing anything, because no one's taking you seriously anyways. saying fuck every other sentence. keeping secrets and not keeping secrets, worth the same cost. pinky promises with crossed fingers and toes. laughing at other's demise. laughing at your own demise. repeat, no one takes you seriously. not sleeping for the sake of non-sense. sleeping for the sake of avoiding to-do's. doing things in reverse order of importance. eating your sister's leftovers. being late to class cause you fell asleep in the shower. not responding to text messages because nothing is more important that your game of bejeweled. singing songs that are not hardcore, but head banging to it anyways. skipping church to get brunch. eating brunch mid afternoon. running yellow, red lights. sleeping naked and sweaty naps. painting fingernails right before bed even though they smudge during sleep. leaving the last bite in the tupper ware to avoid doing dishes. staying in to avoid getting ready to go out. not getting gas until the yellow box of doom. late night cigarettes and coffee. staying in bathroom stalls longer to read the scribbled notes. eating the peanut butter part of the reese's and throwing the chocolate ring away. bull shitting your way through life. squeeling when hearing a long lost song. raising your arm towards a speaker in the middle of a store to shazam a song cause you don't give a fuck. falling asleep with your makeup on. sleepovers on sofas. donuts for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. eternal sunshine makes you cry. every. time. reading the same book over and over because you like the way it's written. thinking of people you shouldn't think about. shrugging your shoulders when you don't feel like talking. wearing sunglasses to avoid dry contacts. eating the best cookies in the shortbread cookie tin. dreaming of the last day of class where you'll stuff hate notes under your professor's office door. hiding the best snacks in the pantry, where no one will look. having a secret stash of chocolates accessible from your bed. adding distinguished films onto your netflix list because you are secretly pretentious. being mean because you feel powerful doing so. biting your lip to avoid crying. preoccupying your mind with thoughts of your future. getting anxiety worrying about things out of your control. hiding from humanity if you have a pimple or blemish. keeping yourself in exile when you find a new favorite album. impersonating your favorite singers voices. fireball and dr. pepper. string cheese and baked hot cheetohs. chapped lips all the time from kissing. fucking hate pda. fucking hate seeing pda. cuddling, snuggling, whatever.