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i feel weird.
in a bad way or a good way?
it's not good or bad, i just don't feel like myself.
what does it feel like for you to feel like yourself?
i'm not sure. i just feel like i don't feel much of anything.
you sound like you feel a lot of things. you sound like you're feeling too many things. you sound like you're feeling so much of everything that you can't sort out what exactly you feel about how you're feeling. 
yeah i'm feeling, but it's not the real type of feeling. it's as if i'm eating, but the food doesn't taste like anything.
then just eat the things you love! the things you've had so much of that you could at least pretend to still taste it even if you don't. 
that's a sure waste of something i love. i can only pretend for so long before forgetting what it tasted like to begin with since i'd get used to it tasting like nothing. then i won't like it at all. i won't even have a memory of what it was like to love it because it'll be replaced by that nothing taste. i'd be better off not trying.
well you sound like you've already tried. 
you're right. i never have an appetite anymore.