i was quiet for just a moment
you're so quiet.
am i?
what are you thinking?
i'm not thinking anything.
that's a first, you're always thinking something.
what makes you think that.
you have a thinking face.
but you say i'm always thinking.. so maybe my "thinking face" is just my normal face..
nope, you just acknowledged that you have a thinking face.
i didn't acknowledge anything. i just recorrected your statement.
nope, you still admitted it.
you're so difficult. maybe that's why i was quiet. to avoid conflict.
that's mean.
i'm sorry, i didn't mean for it to be.
i was quiet again because i was thinking again. "to avoid conflict" huh..
it's weird how things surface when you don't expect them to (i.e., feelings, answers, memories, nuances). case and point, when you're looking for your car keys. you can't seem to find them anywhere, so you tear apart your room and search every nook and cranny of your abode. hours later, you give up and you decide that it's the universe's way of telling you not to go out. when you stop trying and decide to settle in with netflix and microwaveable popcorn, you find the keys in plain sight. then you wonder, "how the fuck did i miss that?" but by then, you're too tired and frustrated to go out, so all the searching was in vain.
maybe i should stop searching for things and let them come to me in their own ways and at their own time. that way when i find it, whatever it may be, it's a nice surprise, and when i don't, it's not a defeated effort.
mantra: the best things come when you least expect it.
in retrospect, i don't realize things are lost until i look for them.
mantra: not all who/that wander are lost.
on second thought, i'm not a part of that (^) population. i don't wander by choice, i wander because i'm definitely lost and in need of a way and/or purpose. i need more than the address of the end destination, i want the step by step the directions. diagrams, drawings, descriptors, everything.
the answer to his question was, "how do these people get on cupcake wars? they seem awful at what they do. definitely under qualified."
