if you can't find a thing to love about yourself, it's likely that others will struggle just as much finding something to love about you. i don't need people to love me. love is over indulgent. people who love other people are too much of everything. too attached, too selfish, too focused on being loved in return. it's not natural. if it's not natural, why do so many people stumble upon it at some point in their lives? people find "lovers" because they need the confirmation that they're worth loving. if everyone was satisfied with themselves, they wouldn't need to find a complement. why look for a better half if you could be the best whole? all by your lonesome, you speak like you've never loved before. love is an abstract concept. what some make of love, i consider endearment. for instance, you see a wounded animal. any decent person would want to help the animal to some degree. some might call for help, others might feel compelled to nurture it back to health. so tell me.. do they help the animal because they love the creature? probably not. aside from devoted animal lovers, coined hopeless romantics in this context.. most people help the animal just because it's the right thing to do. you don't disregard a living being if you feel it really needs help. so love, to you, is a responsibility. it's something you should act upon. it's something that happens regardless of who, or what, is in need of you? i'm not saying it's love. i'm just saying, people tend to form attachments to others because they're either that wounded animal or the nurturer. it's a win-win situation for both involved. the animal is nursed back to health, and the nurturer feels good about him or herself. do you feel good about yourself? no. so you're the wounded animal? i was born blind.
i hope you find your healer.
