do not give into temptations of the heart, of the body, or of the world. everything you're doing from here on out is shaping you to become the right type of girl for the right type of guy. you have standards, but so does he. there has to be something special about you. something that'll set you apart from the million other potential fruit-bearing women out there. something other than the way you look, the type of music you like, or the fact that you enjoy being reckless every now and then. you need to be everything your heart calls you out to be. you need to evolve into a truly unique individual, someone who has a personality, thought process, and potential that is unmatched. you'll eventually become a rare specimen, and he'll hold on when he sees that you're an irreplaceable find.
you need to be someone you would want to be friends with. you don't want to be that person who turns every conversation into a sad sob story about the terrible misfortunes of love. you shouldn't be the person who jumps at the opportunity to leave friends behind when you have to split for the chase. you should be someone that your friends can count on consistently-- physically, emotionally, and mentally be available for the people who have stuck around through heart aches and heart breaks. you need to be someone that your friends can enjoy life with. you should have a better attitude about meeting people, going places, and enjoying the perks of being young. you shouldn't limit yourself to the capacities of your mind. friends are all around you, you need to start giving them pieces of your available heart. your fully functional, happy, available heart.
loving others is easy, natural, and human, but loving yourself is going to be a lifelong process. learn to love your whole self, not just bits and pieces, here and there. you have to be someone you love being. let lessons be learned, bygones be bygones. let yourself grow and move on from past hurts. be proud of yourself, not because of accomplishments or recognition-- those things only lead to feelings of superiority, not genuine appreciation of self-worth. be proud of yourself for living according to the greater good. don't be so stubborn in maintaining a certain image of yourself. things are only beautiful in light when first developed in darkness. make yourself happy before all else. if you're not happy, the people around you won't be either. surround yourself with people who add value to your life and remove all the toxic relationships from your system. don't look back to see if the ones who have fallen short stuck around. every moment spent looking back could be been better spent moving forward. only when you've done all that you want to do, without apprehensions or fears, restrictions or (sad) tears, will you be happy.
i've always loved loving. bumps in the road haven't stopped me from believing that at the end of the tunnel, i'll find my happily ever after. i'll never give up on love. i think that's what i love most about myself.