in between

to some, i seem nice. to others, i seem like a bitch.
to some, i seem happy. to others, i seem discontent.

to some, i seem put together. to others, i seem conflicted. 

seeming is irrelevant, superficial, and more than likely, wrong.

regardless, i seem a lot of things to a lot of people. i need to remember that "seeming" isn't "being". they will think what they will, but i can't let what they think of me dictate how i choose to behave. my ultimate goal in life is to find a good balance between what i can be and what i should be, then stay consistent. this doesn't mean i can't bounce back and forth from both sides of the spectrum every now and then. i just refuse to be only the christine other people want to see. this means, i want to start breaking off the pieces of me that hold me down and get in the way of being wholly. (chuckles). you shouldn't pick and choose your being. just be.

gung ho! self-empowerment! self-improvement!